So yesterday me and my roomies decided to go to Sacramento since we were really bored in Davis and it turned out to be an amazing trip!!!When we first got there the capital building was SURROUNDED by Univision trucks and we walked into the capital building while looking around. Once we entered we asked what was going on outside and they told us it was the celebration of the independence of Mexico (and of course i felt stupid since HELLO im Mexican). Anyways we saw the office of Arnold S., the senate floor, and the representatives floor. Once we walked outside my roomies Eric and Judy told me to just go talk to someone who looked like they worked with Univision and with GREAT nerves i went over and was like "hello, is there any reporters here?" (honestly i didnt know what the heck i was doing...i didnt even know what i was going to say!!!) but there was a lady there who was a reporter and she started talking to me!!! She asked me where i was from and i pretty much just told her about UCD and AGTV and how i have wanted to work for Univision since i was in middle school! She told me that the best thing to do in this industry is to have experience and then she called THE PRODUCER!!! and he came over and she introduced me and said that i was interest in experience/ an internship! They both commented me on my spanish speaking skills and that i was funny! haha.....So the producer didnt have a card so i pulled out my phone and got his number (Eric in the background was like "yay she got a guys number!...funny Eric...funny...lol). He told me that he couldnt give me a paid internship, and i was like "omg just being in Univision would be great!!! i mean if you made me run around i would do it if you could give me an internship(now i realize how stupid this must have sounded.....) So yeah and then i said good bye and walked over to my roomies who both had a huge smile on their faces! haha....i couldnt help smiling like i was on crack for the rest of the day!!! lol
Then we went to the mall and i got the cutest pair of dress pants which cost $30...which for a nice pair of dress pants i think thats good!!! lol... and then we went shopping for my roomie Eric....after me and Judy were done with him he was a TOTAL hottie!!! lol hahahaha....then we made breakfast for dinner! and played cards late into the night....
GREAT DAY!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
i miss ma daddy!
So it might be the lack of T.V.(my addiction to it is quite horrible!!) or the lack or any real activity at the moment in davis, but i miss ma daddy!!! So living at my aunts house was just getting to be too much, like i could pretty much ignore them most of the time but it was sometimes unbearable, so much so that not even the delicious mexican food (and also free!!) and great cable could keep me there much longer. Saying that, i decided to leave as soon as i could from there, but now i find myself alone and with nothing to do, no t.v. to console me! lol. At least there i had my sisters (annoying as they are :) ) to entertain me and the occasional amusing incident happening to others that we all gossip about (my dad likes to go to this park where he meets up with people from mexico to discuss the latest gossip...pretty much who has died, who got married, who is in trouble and who is still a mess). Now i find myself thinking thta maybe i should have stayed there longer, but seriously the thought of returning to my cousin who dosent speak to me and my aunt who makes me feel unworthy is making me bear the loneliness and boredom. But i still miss my dad, sisters, and even my stepmom!( you win universe!!!). I just miss having someone that loves me (thats a big deal since honestly in crazy!) around to talk to. I know that me and my dad have had our differences in the past but i feel like i have grown up so muh in college and learned that some of that hatred came from simple being rebellious. (the other is unresolved issues with my mothers death....). I also keep missing mexico! (again you win universe, i like mexico!!!) i miss my aunts in mexico...they had so much love and just treated me like i know my mom would have treated me and i love them. (this is the first time i have said this since i never was around them when i was younger, seriously this summer was like meeting them for the first time in my life!). They told me so many stories that i have always wanted to know....and how they know how much my dad loves me and their stories just prove this! the fact that he is moving back to mexico in a few weeks is also getting me upset, i mean i wont get to see them! its like having no family...because honestly i dont. its like my dad has made his family and im the leftovers of the last one. but still i know he loves me......
What i really wonder is why this summer was so....um.....transformative i guess i would describe it. My aunt int he u.s. lost the some of the liking that i had towards her, her daughter who i always envied and pretty pushed around by is no longer in my life. i feel like finally i have stood up to them....i dont know what brought this on! im still quite confused....i dont know if im being rebellious and not seeing things clearly. And also transformative was the new found relationship with my moms side of the family. Also transformative is the weirdly adult "friendship"and mutual undestandings between me and my stepmom.....what has happened? i ususally liked my aunt int he u.s. better than my actually parents....why the change? can i not like them both?....hopefully answers will come soon....
What i really wonder is why this summer was so....um.....transformative i guess i would describe it. My aunt int he u.s. lost the some of the liking that i had towards her, her daughter who i always envied and pretty pushed around by is no longer in my life. i feel like finally i have stood up to them....i dont know what brought this on! im still quite confused....i dont know if im being rebellious and not seeing things clearly. And also transformative was the new found relationship with my moms side of the family. Also transformative is the weirdly adult "friendship"and mutual undestandings between me and my stepmom.....what has happened? i ususally liked my aunt int he u.s. better than my actually parents....why the change? can i not like them both?....hopefully answers will come soon....
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
boys...men...guys...whatever!
I Hate guys, men, boys, whatever at the moment....i always go for total jerks who treat me horribly!!! i can say that there have only been two guys in my life who i have been able to stand as friends: moises and michael. other then them i dotn know why but i attract idiots for friends/love interests....im so sick of guys. i have enough shit in my life that i dont need overly emotional men in my life to add to it! honestly, i want friendship and they just cause more problems. i think the problem is that somehow i dont know how to tlak to them....or its that i have a strong character and i get sick of people easily. people tend to annoy me easily....i find somehting that annoys me about them and then it just consumes my thoughts about them....yup....my aunt in mexico told me that because of all the shit ive had in my life i was going to find an AMAZING man....yeah that wont happen with my luck....a man that will love me for me and provide an amazing life that i deserve. honestly the way my life is going, its just getting worse as the years go by....and there seems no clearing in the near future....if only.........
"What not to Wear"
So i watch a lot of t.v. so saying that i have been watching what not to wear all summer long is no BIG WOW. lol. so anyhow i noticed that many people that they made over said the same thing in the beginning as in the end of thier transfermation. A lot of women who were dressed poorly keep saying such things as "i want people to know the real me not the outside" , "i think that people should be concerned with the inside and not judge the person by the outside" or "i dont want to change becuase then people will only see the outside and not know my personality". Funny enough these same women end up changing thier point of view after the transfermation saying that "people can now see the real me", "now that i look good people know i am hardworking" and such like that. Its just funny......Like ugly individuals like to say that we want people to value others and ourselves by whats inside not the physical appearance but when they turn from ugly ducklings to roses they now think that the clothes and makeup somehow now represent themselves. In other words pretty clothes and such can somehow show your worth and talents and such....just weird....
Monday, June 29, 2009
Things ive learned in college....
So I really wanted to do soemthing like this because i do beleive that college is a growing experience and i feel like im a prime example. So i think ill make it a list kinda post, so here it goes....lets see how far i go!
1) Im an idiot. I always misinterpret things and/or assume things that are wrong. I also tend to not realize what God has put in from of me until its too late.
2)Im horrible with guys! Im a horrible flirt and act really childish and/or insult them as a way to tell them that i like them...needless to say, they all hate me now! :(
3)Trying to communicate soemthing important over text or on facebook is NO GOOD! It always lead to misinterpretations and problems
4)College courses is not a good place to make friends, especially if your in a quarter sistem! You always make friends then never see them again!!!
5)Knowing someone in a frat means you are able to get into ANY other frats party
6)Not sleeping at least 4 hours before an exam dosent help! honestly you get the same score as a person who studied those 4 hours less you were awake!
7)watching cartoons is still ok....lol
8)Supposedly all college guys think girls are sluts....but then again college girls dont try to hard to NOT BE sluts.
9)Alcohol tastes BAD, i really dont get why people drink it! if it wasent seen as the cool thing, people would do it cuz its gross! also, youcan have as much fun without alcohol as you can with, if you ACTUALLY KNOW how to have fun!
10) Everyone should take some cultural/ethnic class or gender class opposite of thiers in college to be truly knowlegeable.
now things ive learned about myself....which i kinda already did but i kinda drifted into a tangent....
11)im shallow
12)i confront problems and deal with them rather than wait until later
13)im future oriented-im always conserned with the future never the past
14)im very similar to my father....not just physically
15)i dont like havign problems with people, i hate it when people are mad at me.....i always tend to say sorry even if im not to blame just to fix problems. I even say sorry for roomates who get into fights with others.....:)
16)im a follower
17)my biggest fear is being alone
18)oftentimes when i argue i always think im right...but my roomie reetu is good at helping me see things clearly
18)i tend to see two sides of the story the majority of the times...but noone is perfect and i do get selfish
19)i judge people
20)life is full of shit.....you have to learn to live with it
21)i beleive its easier for people not religious to become religious if they have a good life
22)i still have a lot of unresolved issues
23)i have anger in me
24)i let people push me around
goodness i cant really think of any really GOOD ones at the moment....this ALWAYS happens! when im about to go to sleep is when i have my best ideas! its weird!!!lol
1) Im an idiot. I always misinterpret things and/or assume things that are wrong. I also tend to not realize what God has put in from of me until its too late.
2)Im horrible with guys! Im a horrible flirt and act really childish and/or insult them as a way to tell them that i like them...needless to say, they all hate me now! :(
3)Trying to communicate soemthing important over text or on facebook is NO GOOD! It always lead to misinterpretations and problems
4)College courses is not a good place to make friends, especially if your in a quarter sistem! You always make friends then never see them again!!!
5)Knowing someone in a frat means you are able to get into ANY other frats party
6)Not sleeping at least 4 hours before an exam dosent help! honestly you get the same score as a person who studied those 4 hours less you were awake!
7)watching cartoons is still ok....lol
8)Supposedly all college guys think girls are sluts....but then again college girls dont try to hard to NOT BE sluts.
9)Alcohol tastes BAD, i really dont get why people drink it! if it wasent seen as the cool thing, people would do it cuz its gross! also, youcan have as much fun without alcohol as you can with, if you ACTUALLY KNOW how to have fun!
10) Everyone should take some cultural/ethnic class or gender class opposite of thiers in college to be truly knowlegeable.
now things ive learned about myself....which i kinda already did but i kinda drifted into a tangent....
11)im shallow
12)i confront problems and deal with them rather than wait until later
13)im future oriented-im always conserned with the future never the past
14)im very similar to my father....not just physically
15)i dont like havign problems with people, i hate it when people are mad at me.....i always tend to say sorry even if im not to blame just to fix problems. I even say sorry for roomates who get into fights with others.....:)
16)im a follower
17)my biggest fear is being alone
18)oftentimes when i argue i always think im right...but my roomie reetu is good at helping me see things clearly
18)i tend to see two sides of the story the majority of the times...but noone is perfect and i do get selfish
19)i judge people
20)life is full of shit.....you have to learn to live with it
21)i beleive its easier for people not religious to become religious if they have a good life
22)i still have a lot of unresolved issues
23)i have anger in me
24)i let people push me around
goodness i cant really think of any really GOOD ones at the moment....this ALWAYS happens! when im about to go to sleep is when i have my best ideas! its weird!!!lol
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Women
So i had to wrote a paper for sociology about something in popular culture that has had an impact on me. The first thing i thought of was Victorias Secret since i work there. It was all about VS's commercials and thier imapct on women self image. I was also taking a history class this quarter about american women and the family. Its funny, i feel like im a total feminist now! lol! Oh, and i also watched "mean girls" tonight...so im all about women talk right now!
On this topic, there is a lot of opinions and things to consider. Why are women so conserned with beauty and self image? Why are women so mean to each other? Can a women ever REALLY accept herself? Who created this image of beauty? Why are women the sex that has to be pretty? Is it because we are delicate and weak? Why does the media continue to portray women in the domestic role if we haev greater opportunities? Are women truly more equal? We discussed in my history class the emergance of cosmetics in the early 19th century and how marketing for makeup created an image of how women should look like. It also helped women in the 1920's express their liberation through makeup, but it was the makeup companies themselves that created the belief that makeup created female independance. So my next question: has the market created womenhood/femininity as a way to keep the economy going? Are women keeping the economy going? If women were to accept themselves and take a more masculine role would the economy calapsed? In the end it is women who shop for clothes, food, and household necessities. Just look at a mall, i want to say that the mall is like maybe 90% female retail(if you take out all the food places!). We had to read an article by Betty Friedan that discussed the marketing in the 1950's. We know that that was the most consumerist period of US history. Some interesting things is that they created products for women to stay inside the house which made them beleive that they were supposed to be housewives and that this was fulfilling. They created housewives or at least they defined housewifery(?).
All these victorias secret models are gorgeous! Commercials are filled with makeup and clothes and shit to maek women want them, to make women think that this is beauty! It seems like the media creates womenhood.
Mean girls ends with Lindsay sayin that "it dosent matter if you call someone fat, ugly, etc....thats not goign to make me win"...or something liek that! But we all know this but we still tlak about other girls! Even the nice, perfect girls!!! I dotn know if it is possible to accept each other in a big sisterhood world or ourself. I beleive it is simple human nature to gossip and talk abotu others,but is it? It seem like this issue of self esteem has come about with the turn of the century, but is it just the media again? Didnt women before concerne themselves with dresses and used corsetts which hurt like a motha! i know! i used one for my quinceanera. But where does this coem from? this need for beauty? the pain, time consumption women go through for beauty. It is because of men? In my communications class we tlaked abotu how men are more interested in womens beauty then women are. so have men created this self image and beauty for women? how did it evolve? there is always all this tlak that men and women look for a partner that is best for reproduction and that is a reason why people choose a partner. but i wonder if this is true in our society. Do people really look for the one partner who is the msot beautiful of the most reprodcutively capable? why is pain associated with beauty?......SO many questions....but im tired now, but i will surely come back to adress this issue again. I have a lot to say about this but i think i will organize it better!
next post will be on men.
keep Gabbing everyone!
On this topic, there is a lot of opinions and things to consider. Why are women so conserned with beauty and self image? Why are women so mean to each other? Can a women ever REALLY accept herself? Who created this image of beauty? Why are women the sex that has to be pretty? Is it because we are delicate and weak? Why does the media continue to portray women in the domestic role if we haev greater opportunities? Are women truly more equal? We discussed in my history class the emergance of cosmetics in the early 19th century and how marketing for makeup created an image of how women should look like. It also helped women in the 1920's express their liberation through makeup, but it was the makeup companies themselves that created the belief that makeup created female independance. So my next question: has the market created womenhood/femininity as a way to keep the economy going? Are women keeping the economy going? If women were to accept themselves and take a more masculine role would the economy calapsed? In the end it is women who shop for clothes, food, and household necessities. Just look at a mall, i want to say that the mall is like maybe 90% female retail(if you take out all the food places!). We had to read an article by Betty Friedan that discussed the marketing in the 1950's. We know that that was the most consumerist period of US history. Some interesting things is that they created products for women to stay inside the house which made them beleive that they were supposed to be housewives and that this was fulfilling. They created housewives or at least they defined housewifery(?).
All these victorias secret models are gorgeous! Commercials are filled with makeup and clothes and shit to maek women want them, to make women think that this is beauty! It seems like the media creates womenhood.
Mean girls ends with Lindsay sayin that "it dosent matter if you call someone fat, ugly, etc....thats not goign to make me win"...or something liek that! But we all know this but we still tlak about other girls! Even the nice, perfect girls!!! I dotn know if it is possible to accept each other in a big sisterhood world or ourself. I beleive it is simple human nature to gossip and talk abotu others,but is it? It seem like this issue of self esteem has come about with the turn of the century, but is it just the media again? Didnt women before concerne themselves with dresses and used corsetts which hurt like a motha! i know! i used one for my quinceanera. But where does this coem from? this need for beauty? the pain, time consumption women go through for beauty. It is because of men? In my communications class we tlaked abotu how men are more interested in womens beauty then women are. so have men created this self image and beauty for women? how did it evolve? there is always all this tlak that men and women look for a partner that is best for reproduction and that is a reason why people choose a partner. but i wonder if this is true in our society. Do people really look for the one partner who is the msot beautiful of the most reprodcutively capable? why is pain associated with beauty?......SO many questions....but im tired now, but i will surely come back to adress this issue again. I have a lot to say about this but i think i will organize it better!
next post will be on men.
keep Gabbing everyone!
Friday, June 12, 2009
Happiness
I just saw "The pursuit of happyness" tonight and it made me think a little bit. Because im a major history geek, i thought the reaccuring mention of benjamin franklin was awesome! The declaration of independence has the following "....and the pursuit of happiness". Will Smith goes on to say something like "maybe thats why its a pursuit because we never actually reach happiness"...or at least something like that! lol. I also saw a documentary on Eva Longoria and she said that her character "Gaby Solis" in Desperate Housewifes got into trouble because "she had everything in the world, she was supposed to be completely happy". Happiness......we all search for it but do we ever reach it? When can we say "im completely happy"? I think its different for different people, but why is it that the people living in the wealthies countries have the greatest depression and sadness? Is this belief just a belief spread by the mass media? because when you really think about it, those people in countries below poverty level are never portrayed as happy but they do not suffer from depression. I was thinking about my own life. How im always complaining and depressed and unhappy with my life but in reality I AM SO INCREDIBLE BLESSED AND LUCKY! I HAVE EVERYTHING TO BE HAPPY!!! I have food, clean water, clothes, a home, a college education.....and so much more! How can i not be happy, but still i am.
To be complete honest i feel like i need a guy to be completely happy, but i shouldnt need them. Why cant i take what blessing i have and be happy? Why cant people take what they have and be happy? if we could all acknowledge this could the world be a happier place? Its so easy to look at the think you lack in your life and forget all the good things, but we should be looking more at the good things in life! Hard times seem to last forever, and good times are always short and scheduled. Why is this so? I just realized...looking back at winter quarter...i had a major fight with a friend and lost her kinda completely. I was so upset because i saw her as my best friend, kinda like the only great friend i had in davis....except two others. But funny thing, at the same time i started to get to know a co-worker who is the best. i can share anything with her and she listens and helps me out. Just comparing these two people i realize that God took away a person that i beleived was "a good friend" and actually gave me a GOOD FRIEND!
Im kinda in a writers block.....mayeb im just tired....sorry this couldnt be much more better analized and everything! Hopefully next blog will be better and the topic is going to be...........
L<3VE
keep Gabbing everone!
To be complete honest i feel like i need a guy to be completely happy, but i shouldnt need them. Why cant i take what blessing i have and be happy? Why cant people take what they have and be happy? if we could all acknowledge this could the world be a happier place? Its so easy to look at the think you lack in your life and forget all the good things, but we should be looking more at the good things in life! Hard times seem to last forever, and good times are always short and scheduled. Why is this so? I just realized...looking back at winter quarter...i had a major fight with a friend and lost her kinda completely. I was so upset because i saw her as my best friend, kinda like the only great friend i had in davis....except two others. But funny thing, at the same time i started to get to know a co-worker who is the best. i can share anything with her and she listens and helps me out. Just comparing these two people i realize that God took away a person that i beleived was "a good friend" and actually gave me a GOOD FRIEND!
Im kinda in a writers block.....mayeb im just tired....sorry this couldnt be much more better analized and everything! Hopefully next blog will be better and the topic is going to be...........
L<3VE
keep Gabbing everone!
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